and the Tao of Anxiety I want to wear makeup, be girly and playful No one will take you
seriously and think you’re stupid I
want to be taken seriously Lighten up! Laugh; smile! I
want to dance and feel womanly So you want to objectify
yourself again? I
want to take care of myself Don’t be selfish! I
want to be loved Play by their rules and be
WANT TO BE LOVED FOR WHO I AM!! Who are you and why haven’t
they told you who you are? I
want to be happy You got me in a box here; I thought
I was making you happy No;
although you are challenging me to no end You’re welcome Huh? So have you worked it out
not quite Would you be as strong,
loved and inspirational (trust me, you still are and always be,) if I didn’t
make your life hell at times? Now
you have ME in a box (wry giggles) remember the Tao? Yeah;
Yin/Yang, Dark/ Light, balance; ride the waves of shadow and light. Are the halves within the
whole symbol completely bright and completely dark on each half? No;
each has a bit of the other…
As you may or may not know most of this year, I've been focused on creating my new album and personal growth; a slow and rewarding process for both. I'm happy to say production on TWO songs are under way. Just had to re-record some vocals for "Liminal" due to some peaking levels and rendering issues. Had the place to myself for a few hours and nailed it. "Tell Me" will be the next track to get recorded. Good Lord! That may mean a music video too. Been a while. Feels like home to create again.
Five years ago, I experienced my first troll. I did a video; the man who became my Anam Cara saw it and messaged me directly.
Thank you, troll.
Over the years when I shared the times I was cyberbullied, you all rallied around me and held up a mirror to me.
Thank you troll.
I may not hear from all of you regularly but you make your input count. Thank you; troll, that includes you.
I see you good people and I love you.
Troll, I forgive you because you are as powerless to change yourself as I am to aid you to crawl from your own abyss.
I walk away from you knowing I am loved as much as you hate.
Through the love of kind, loyal and true hearts, near and far; I rise.
Eternal gratitude, gentle folk.